I regret the decision I made last time, but a choice is a choice. Somemore with something so serious decisions made cannot be changed already. I’m sorry.
No where else to run but here, I can’t afford to let you know how I really feel.
What do you think I’d feel when…
All you could think about is how good he was to you.
Telling me you’re doing one thing when obviously you’re doing smth else and everyone can see it.
You tell me not to wait for you cause it’s not worth waiting?
I wish I can trust you, but sometimes even I don’t know of what I feel for you is love. They all tell me to just give up, that you’re just flirting and looking for fun. I choose not to listen to them, believing that you really do have certain feeling, just that you’re not ready.
Then again, things had changed after that faithful night, you said you wouldn’t change, but eventually you did unknowingly. I don’t know what led to this change and why did you change. I just hope this change is for the best and not for the worst..
Girl you’re my everything now, I have only 7days before my chance of being with you become very slim.
How am I suppose to mend that broken heart of yours, when after so long you’re still siding him and saying its not entirely his fault? Saying that he is a nice guy, that he is your kind of guy.
You ask me not to continue liking you already as it’s not worth it and it’s waste of my time. Girl, you are the reason why I’m striving so hard at work, picking up so much shifts, just so I could save enough to get you that birthday present. Yes I may not be that rich guy you used to have, but I’m sure I’m able to make you feel the happiness you once had, maybe even more.
Girl loving someone is difficult, being forced to not have feelings for you is even more difficult. It’s not something that can be done instantly. You make it seem not loving you can be done instantly. But let me tell you it’s definitely gonna hurt me more that it’s gonna hurt you.
You’re fast asleep, while I’m still awake thinking about you.
I love you yet I know I won’t be getting any back in return.
Each time I tell myself not to sink so deep, not to get hurt by someone whom don’t appreciate me. But in the end, looks like I still succumb to the power of love..
Yet, time and time again things don’t work well and I’d eventually end up being the one getting hurt the most. Nope no self inflicted cuts as that would only make me remember you more..
I want to press on, give it a shot as I know this time it might be something after all.
But.. I’m lost. Like a sheep surrounded by pack of wolves, heading to whichever direction would only be suicidal, it just depends on the time I’m killed.
Chances was given to those that doesn’t treasure it. What about me, someone that really treasure it? Am I given a chance to prove myself?
To prove that, I can be much better than how he treated you. How much caring I could be then he ever would. How.. Self sacrificing and protective I will be just for you sake. To protect you from being hurt by those that hurt you so many times.
I do feel the pain, knowing how much you’re hurt. Yet there’s also nothing I could do, to ease your pain. I could only tell you ’ it’s okay, don’t think about it already it’s not your fault. He doesn’t deserve you.’ I feel so useless saying that as I can’t do much.
Maybe, just maybe you might be just using me as a form of support. Using me just to ease your pain, I don’t care if that’s true, all I want is to see that smile once again from your face.
Love, something so easy to pronounce yet so difficult to understand.
You’ve left Singapore for only 8 hours and I’m already missing you so much…
因为有了我，让这个世界，而有一点点的不一样； 而我的世界，不过就是你的心。
《那些年，我们一起追的女孩》
